I think my chemistry is changing
Seeing friends with young kids I feel like I want to be a grandfather. I just love the kids - and I really don't like kids because kids are little assholes. Over the weekend my s/o and I visited her friends with a 2 year old and I was smitten. It's really cute to see little kids speaking different languages - adds to the cuteness. But this kid was adorable. She was kind and smiling and her little voice. I really couldn't get enough - my s/o would drop hints like "See? You could have your own daughter again!" - made my stomach turn thinking about being a new father again.
But talking with the young couple (mid 30s) about the chance they have with their kid - how the father can set the standard for the little girl on what to expect - she will learn how to love men in her life based on her father's interactions with her - she will learn what to expect too! I felt like I couldn't stop giving them tips - when half the tips were things i didn't do right and the other half were things I did right and they should do right too!
As much as loved being around the kid, I was very glad my s/o and I got in our car and drove away with just the two of us.
Anywho - anyone else about my age (mid 40s) start feeling grandparenty like this?
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