I Had Kind Of a Strange Night Last Night...

[jimnyc]

Welcome to BipolarLand!

Nah, you ain't got it. Just that it's happened to me one or 168x before! Worst feeling. The only way I've ever been able to describe it to people is by asking them this:

"You know that feeling you get when on a roller coaster, or water ride, and you're slowly going up that incline, seeing the top of the world, knowing you're about to go screaming down full speed on the other side!" that's normal, that's adrenaline running in our systems, and it feels good!

But when woken up out of a dead sleep, at 3am, for some unknown reason - that adrenaline no longer feels very good. Now it feels like you're out of control, something is wrong with you.

Try and repeat and believe and convince yourself that's all it is, just adrenaline and anxiety, and you can easily beat it!

That is NOT to say that you shouldn't get checked out, that of course never hurts and should be your primary person if this is all new to you.

Them Oxycodone's are a life saver, but also made me feel crazy at times. If I ate too many, which was all the time, it gave me sleep issues. But I didn't care, because if I woke early and couldn't sleep, I would pour myself a coffee and then take another oxy! But I also found out the hard way about sleeping issues and other issues when running out of them, or when it came time to stop using them altogether.

[Elessar]

@jimnyc, much as I like you...

I BEG YOUR PARDON!

[jimnyc]

@jimnyc, much as I like you...

I BEG YOUR PARDON!

I hope I didn't offend!!

1st off, my bad, my reply was all directed at HPD in his reference to waking in the night and anxiety. I was kinda kidding with him about the bipolar crap, but the feelings are similar, so one can relate to an extent. And then the medications, well, I've had and tried enough of may things, especially the pain killer stuff, so was just relaying my experience to Tom, especially the sleep issues!

By no means was my post meant to disrespect anyone here at all, nor was it a reply to any of your posts and experiences.

My bad altogether, I should have quoted Tom when making my reply to begin with, making it clear who I was responding to.

[High_Plains_Drifter]

Welcome to BipolarLand!

Nah, you ain't got it. Just that it's happened to me one or 168x before! Worst feeling. The only way I've ever been able to describe it to people is by asking them this:

"You know that feeling you get when on a roller coaster, or water ride, and you're slowly going up that incline, seeing the top of the world, knowing you're about to go screaming down full speed on the other side!" that's normal, that's adrenaline running in our systems, and it feels good!

But when woken up out of a dead sleep, at 3am, for some unknown reason - that adrenaline no longer feels very good. Now it feels like you're out of control, something is wrong with you.

Try and repeat and believe and convince yourself that's all it is, just adrenaline and anxiety, and you can easily beat it!

That is NOT to say that you shouldn't get checked out, that of course never hurts and should be your primary person if this is all new to you.

Them Oxycodone's are a life saver, but also made me feel crazy at times. If I ate too many, which was all the time, it gave me sleep issues. But I didn't care, because if I woke early and couldn't sleep, I would pour myself a coffee and then take another oxy! But I also found out the hard way about sleeping issues and other issues when running out of them, or when it came time to stop using them altogether.

Yeah the oxy, I'm very thankful I get it from the VA, but I'm sure since the huge uproar over it that the reason I still do get it is because I don't get enough of it each month to constitute an addiction. I get the smallest size dose, and really not that many. I don't take it every day either, because it does lose it's potency if you do. I take it every few days as needed, and yes, I also usually take it in the morning with coffee. It will make me feel pretty good, I do get a buzz. Many times I've referred to it as pill cocaine. It will keep me up at night too if I take it too late in the day.

As far as the other night waking up feeling like I was having a minor anxiety attack, it might have been the pizza I ate too late in the evening, I don't know, but it's happened before, it's just been quite awhile. I actually do feel outstanding health wise, but just in case my biannual check up at the VA is on the 26th. I've had my gym almost a month now and I've hit it virtually every day. I can see and feel the difference. I've already added weight and have gone from simply trying to build up my strength to actually feeling much stronger and pushing myself. I know this has to be causing changes in my system. This could have been the reason too. Sleep can be fickle with me, I'll go through periods where I wake up 3 or 4 times a night, and when I wake up I know I haven't slept well and I actually still feel tired. Then one night I'll sleep like a log and not so much as even stir, and I'll sleep for a good 8 or 10 hours and feel like a million bucks. I'll pop right out of bed and be ready for anything.

[High_Plains_Drifter]

Some great stories about the paranormal in this thread, I love it.

The little house I live in was built in 1948. One day a neighbor woman stopped by and I offered to let her see the house, but she stood at the back door and gazed inside all wide eyed and said, "did you know that an old lady that used to live here died in here?" Well no, I didn't. She said that she had died in the kitchen and laid on the floor for a couple days before anyone found her. Well, her soul must have gone to heaven then because I've never heard or seen anything funny go on in here. I've even tried to get an EVP with my Olympus digital voice recorder and nothing. I do believe that the vast majority of people's spirits "pass on" after they die. It's only a very tiny handful that don't. Either they didn't believe in God or had no religion at all or something, but they just don't "see the light" after they're dead, so their spirit leaves the body but doesn't know where to go, so they're kinda stuck floating around with the living, and really, I don't believe they're supposed to be here. It's an accident, something not meant to be.

I believe those that do pass on into heaven can still see and hear us, but they're not permitted to interact with us.