Man, I wish I were with NT, as I know he's up at the cabin right now. Man, what I wouldn't do for some peace time and quiet there right about now!!
Got up at 4:45 am today and that's a record sleep-in for me in the past 11 days. It started with a mild depression, nothing new, but then anxiety set in after my Dad visited and then left. My thought process is all fucked up and makes me my own worst enemy I guess.
But what started out as a little sleep loss, then a little anxiety, then a domino effect happened real fast. Went from little sleep to more anxiety to no sleep. The less sleep I got the more crappy and lack of energy the next day, and the more anxiety. Hard to rest and relax when ya got anxiety. Then I get so so exhausted I feel like how can I NOT sleep this time? Drug myself like an elephant and wake up in sweats and the worst restless leg syndrome ever like 2-3 hours later!
It's been a bit of a struggle but at least I've learned how to counter act to these things and respond. But sometimes it still kicks my ass and has me tapping out of the octagon. I need sleep, it's that simple. Haven't been getting any and it's taken its toll on me. But now getting a little better the past 2-3 days. Getting 5-6 hours if I'm lucky, usually divided though, unfortunately, as I wake with that damn RLS again last night.
I have these electronic leg massage you wrap around your legs and choose modes and strength. It's air pressured and awesome! But when the RLS sets in, that means getting out of bed, putting them on and sitting for 20 minutes. Sometimes you are just too tired, but if you don't, it can take hours to stop. I tried sleeping with them on to make easier, but not really doable.
So I'm gonna take some baby steps to get back into action so as not to get things started up again.