Thanks for the comments and the private messages my friends. I am back but very likely will be a long time before the old fire in me resurfaces.
Gonna pace myself until a bit of the onery, hell raising comes back to red-flow my blood and reignite my usual defiance towards this dark world......
Life sometimes just sneaks up on you and hits you with so much, that regardless of who you are--you find it overwhelming..
The mark of a man is how hard he fights that and how quick he gets back up and walks back into the bright daylight.
I am back out of that darkness and it was a truly wicked and powerful beast--one I've never faced before.
I feel like I've just fought a war.. and was damn lucky not to take a bullet....
Thanks again for the kindness and notes from my friends.. -Tyr